Tuesday thoughts

Writing this blog has made me feel uncomfortably superficial, so I´ll write down some of my thoughts about holistic well-being to balance all this body-centeredness...

I´m guessing I´m not the only one who diets because (or at least has it as high priority) of better looking body. Just let´s not forget about mental, spiritual and emotional welfare while taking care of our bodies! 

A lot of reasons why we want to look like something particular; slim, muscular, curvy; actually come from society, which is people around us, who, in the end, are ALL different. Even the general vision of what looks good is changing all the time, as it has changed in the past.

Perhaps people around us are even very accepting (maybe excluding California) but then there´s commercial media and it´s endless war against our self-esteem; to make us feel bad about ourselves; to make us want to fit in these weird unrealistic boundaries.

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No matter how good you look, no matter how thin and shaped you are, if you haven´t dealt with your emotional burden and fears, and learned how to be humble, loving and forgiving in the face of life, you will only end up struggling for ever more.

We all have met these people; a beautiful woman who just doesn´t make you light up inside; an average-looking, overweight middle-aged woman who´s sheer presence makes you feel better and happier, and who´s laughter gets your mood up for days.

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So what are we running after? In the end it´s just happiness... and happiness can only be discovered from within, not from the latest diet plan.

It´s not how beautiful we are outside that makes us attractive; it´s the love we have created in ourselves.

Body is our tool in this world; instead of shame and judgment let´s live in it wisely and give it lot´s of warm loving!

-Lilli

Sunny Monday

One week is done, and it went fast! Friday and Saturday I slipped into normal eating habits, but I think it´s healthier to eat more every now and then, to balance the scarce-ish diet and not get starved, right..! Weekends are good for that, if I just don´t go WAYY over with fat and sugar and other munchy stuff.

Todays foods:

Breakfast

-coffee with milk
-organic rye bread with butter, cheese, tomato and onion, salt and pepper (this is so good)

Lunch

-salmon salad (same as yesterday, freshly made)

Dinner

-rye bread with cheese and butter

Snacks

-carrot
-mandarins
-cup of dark cocoa made in milk with some organic cocoa nibs 

Today, around midday I sat for an whole hour next to Tammerkoski-river and snowy restaurant-boats, enjoying the sun and absorbing the lovely light and precious Vitamin D. Today I could feel the spring coming.

-Lilli

Sunday

Today I finally got back on track.

Evenings not done yet and I can still eat a few calories. Here´s what I´ve been eating so far:

Breakfast

-coffee with milk  
-piece of organic rye bread with butter, cheese, tomato and onion

Lunch

-big bowl of salmon salad ♥
   oven cooked and cooled salmon
   oak leaf lettuce
   romaine lettuce
   2 tomatoes
   some cucumber
   organic onion
   organic lemon (I eat this whole, skins aromatic oils give funky feeling in the mouth) 

Dinner

-one barley sausage with ketchup

Snacks

-an organic carrot
-some hard candies
-coffee with cream

I LOVE salad and I think I could eat different salads everyday! It doesn´t make me feel tired like heavy, cooked, high in carbohydrates foods, but I do get hungry again after a while.

But, after yesterdays overeating and extremely uncomfortable feeling that lasted for hours I think it´s better to feel a bit empty than absolutely bursting, no matter how good the food is...

I´m happy with today, and there´s still something nice ahead, Bodyguard is on TV in a few minutes! Whitney Houstons (RIP) and Kevin Costners nearly syrupy romance... great ending for a Sunday ;P 

-Lilli

Saturday is for Salmon

No calorie-counting today, I can´t say no to fish!

Salmon cooked in oven with cream plus mashed potatoes, and some cucumber, tomato and dark green lettuce on the side, can´t get much better than that.

"Dessert" was white chocolate-yoghurt-cashews... can´t really say no to them either :)

So I ate too much and my stomach hurts, uggh...

Also, no drinking beer this weekend which is always a small triumph.

Tomorrow I might make myself happy with some exercise.

Ta-ta!

-Lilli

Friday fatigue

Today I decided to forget the calories after feeling tired and dizzy till late in the afternoon. Nothing a little chocolate and banana couldn´t fix. In the evening I ate a biiig load of the most best chicken salad ever.

Recipe:

-oven-cooked and cooled chicken, cut in pieces
-two different kinds of dark green lettuces
-tomatos
-cucumber
-canned peach
-onion
-salt and pepper

Simple and so so nice!

-Lilli

4th day, Friday

I´ve been rethinking the cappuccino-calories and I don´t think it´s possible to be 500 kcal per cup! It´s just espresso and whipped milk? I did add some brown sugar but STILL. Doesn´t seem right. Maybe I´ll get some truthful information about that yet :)

Last night I was still so hungry that in the end I ate an orange, a carrot and a crisp rye bread with butter and cheese + a small piece of dark chocolate. Yummy!

I´ve been feeling the hunger every now and then, but it´s not too bad, and it´s easy to fulfill with some low-cal food, like fruits and vegetables.

Maybe when I get rid of my extra fat, the hunger goes away :)

-Lilli

Day 3 - Coffee clash

Holee crap! Everything was splendid when I started to add up my calories from today, looking quite nice after I added 1 cup of cappuccino I had in a bar.

Geez, went over the limits to app. 1300 kcal. It´s not possible to know the real calories of cappuccino you have somewhere and even the quantity might be a bit off, but I counted it with some mediocre values. It seems you might get 500 kcal from a cup of cappuccino, which in this diet means more than a third of overall calories of the day. Possibly not worth it...

Guess it´s espresso or regular "Finnish" coffee for me from now on... :)

Todays eatings:

-soft-boiled egg
-cappuccino
-2 carrot-pies
-organic apple
-a few almonds
-minced meat and pasta

Doesn´t look like much, doesn´t feel like much. Oh well, it´s not so serious and this was just another "lesson".

I did walk quite a lot! Even the sun was shining which always makes me happy.

Thanks universe, bye!

-Lilli